life is totally screwed right now. the friend i thought i could actually trust (( or maybe i never did, i really dont know right now )) , changed. the reason is clear and i juz really dont know what to do. if not for some ppl that might hav still remained by me and actually felt the way i didnt abt that person, i would be so depressed i'd cry my eyes out until i totally dehidrate like a prune. a human prune... umm ok.....
so all i want to say is, i dont really care if u noe hu u are, and hu u are who changed hu that person is. i thought u were really ok until, well, mainly today. u told him things i never did, or maybe u juz thought i did, but please, get ure sources right and confirm before u badmouth abt me. i now realize that what ppl say hav been oh so true, and YES , THEY HAV BEEN TALKING. let me tell u sumthing, keep this up and he'll be the only friend u have. u never treated them with the respect u gave him, always taken them for granted cuz they forgave u for every wrong u wrote. i really dont want to sound like a bitch over here, crapping abt one of her...friends... if u could call it that.... but i REALLY CANT STAND IT ANYMORE. now i know I am the victim and its not really fun.
HECK CARE huh? since when... since when................................ once u noe u hav security, u make fun of sumone that has always been there for u. u are the definition of 'puttin up a fake image' . thanks for showing me ure true colours. So, the day that everyone has the guts desert u, u'll see what ure left with. and that may only stand one.... u'll never know. so, thanks again for talking bad about me. and some intentions wernt as they seem, so please, dont jump to conclusions. Others may be nice to u as i did before but thats cuz they never knew ure,... otherside, we could call it. oh well.
i dont really care if u post a paragraph or..15 abt me. cuz all i want is to get this out in the open. express my anger (( although this is reletively calm)) for how u betrayed me. even though i couldnt say somethings to u when i figured it out THERE and THEN, this is really messed up and so i had to do this. this is to let u know that I DO KNOW. even though i didnt say anything. thanks for acting up infront of me and eveyone else. the only person u were extremely nice to wasnt even known to u last year. so if thats how long it takes to build a friendship for u... or...O__o........ then i hav no clue how fast it'll take to fall apart.
as i said, go ahead and write all the shit u want abt me. but then i'll juz see what kind of a person u really are. u said u hated something/someone and yet, u do/talk to that somehting/someone with great enthusiasm.
maybe u think im jelous? but nope. i assure u , im not. not one bit as i would never give up all the ppl i hav now for that one person in ure life . he can put u to sleep but i dun give a shit.
ok. im kinda fueled out of anger so im kinda stopping here. go ahead. i posted it on my blog to be read.
and thanks again yea....thanks......-___-''